I knew I was a highly sensitive person my whole life as I was kindly (not so kindly) reminded by people my entire life.
You’re too sensitive I’ve always been told. You shouldn’t care so much…
I’ve always struggled to understand how people can live on “small talk” and not being so devastated by the terrible things that happen in our world.
I hate animal and human cruelty it pulls my heartstrings so much and I always carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Often wishing I could change the entire world and make it safe and magical.
It’s meant that while other people accept the society we live in and just follow what is the norm.
I’ve always pushed the boundaries and not accepted what is.
It’s been hard for me to always feel like I’m the odd one out, and out of place.
Often a niggling feeling that “something is wrong with me”.
But as time has gone on, I’ve come to realise that there is nothing wrong with me!
Instead of questioning myself I’ve been looking outwards and wondering what the fuck is wrong with the rest of the world.
When I became a mother I started to really see things in a different light.
Some of the things I was able to accept for myself and put up with I couldn’t let go as a mother for my child.
The old dominating and fearful way of parenting didn’t align with me.
I remember how it made me feel like as a child and I didn’t respect my parents it was fear-based.
Yet still, I parented at times the way I was parented.
And I hated myself for it.
And I realised I was hurting my child.
So I stopped parenting that way and have slowly found myself coming into a calmer and more respectful, loving way of parenting.
But that at times around certain people has made me feel weak and like a failure.
So I’ve continued to build my resilience and continue on my path of parenting the way I felt was right.
Fast forward to 6 years in and I’d say it’s feeling more and more right as the days go on.
I’ve always thought homeschooling would be more aligned for us as I hated school and I didn’t want my child to be forced into such a hostile and volatile environment.
We tried it and she hated it.
It caused me to worry, anxiety and stress. She is now super happy at home with her mum and sisters. And we are ALL happy.
Another learning curve.
Another strange choice to make in our society and yet here I am stepping up in my growth to be here and live our life in alignment.
It takes courage, strength and trust in yourself to be able to walk a path that is different from the norm.
And if you are being held back by fear of being different or judged I want you to take some time to imagine living a life more true to yourself.
I want you to step into your power!
If you are unsure how to take these first steps and want to talk about them I’d love to chat with you and find out how I can support you.
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